Today was report card day. This is the first one she has gotten and I'm so proud. She got checks for "mastered" in all areas except language and gym. In those she got "progressing" marks. Totally awesome. Her language development is hard to track because, I guess, she isn't speaking up in class. I kind of figured. She is really shy and usually just lets other kids do the talking for her, just nodding or agreeing. Which the teacher sees, too. She isn't using complete sentences because she just agrees with everything. I know she can talk, lol. She never shuts up at home and speaks the best of all 3 kids (of course she does, since she's the oldest). But I know when we are out in public and people ask the kids questions Owen and Brenna will start going on and on trying to answer and Meagan will clam up and just nod or shaker her head or whisper an answer. I'm just going to have to work on that. Gym wasn't a suprise either. She hates it. They have gym twice a week and for awhile she cried on Tuesdays and Thursdays because she didn't want to go to gym class and would fake sick to stay home.

Lately, though, she has been excited to go to gym but she has told me that she sucks at it (her words) and can't run as fast as the other kids. She said she is the slowest in her class. Not a surprise. Brenna runs faster then her. She has a weird gait (is that the correct spelling--I'm too lazy to look) when she runs. She kind of lands with her feet flat, instead of on her heels and never extends her knees all the way. It is more of a shuffled run and she is very slow. When she walks she scuffs the floor, too and doesn't pick her feet up much. I have been working with her on picking up her feet since she started preschool. She has gotten better, but still, she is very slow and very aware of it. She always tells me she can't do the sports and stuff in gym class and doesn't want to participate (too much like me, sigh).

She also has really weak legs. She still crawled up the stairs half the time when she was 3. She just could not walk up them even doing the one step at a time way that little kids do. Owen was running up and down them by 2 and Meagan would get up about 3 then have to use her hands to crawl up the last few. I was worried for awhile but she seemed to improve after getting a new bike and gaining some strength in her legs. She can now walk up and down normally, but she can't run down the stairs like Owen and Brenna can. Might be a coordination thing, or a height thing. She is afraid of heights and really holds the railing tight when she goes down stairs.

But anyway. Great report card. I always knew she would do good in school. She is so smart. I just wish she wasn't so shy. I was like that in school and is sucked. I see her plunging into the depths of social anxiety already and she is only 5. She is just like I was at that age and now I'm almost homebound because of anxiety. I just want her childhood to be happier. I was such an outcast in school and had no friends (literally-in junior high I didn't have a single friend in school for 2 years. I sat alone every day at lunch and kids picked on me relentlessly). So far she is on a better track. She has friends. Actually she is pretty much friends with everyone in her class and has, gasp, a "boyfriend", lol. Okay, so she says he's not her boyfriend. She just like him. His name is Jared. She is so funny about it. Five year olds are so cute.